Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Woman's Curse

At the fall of man, God said to the woman, “I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing; with pain you will give birth to children.” Genesis 3:16

Each month I got a negative test result and my period came, there were several days of sadness surrounding it. One month Andy was holding me as I cried and admitted that he couldn’t understand this sadness. He wanted children just like me, but there was a definite difference in the way it affected us. I explained to him that pregnancy was something I thought about every hour of every day. I couldn’t help it. I was even charting my fertility online daily.

We realized that because pregnancy happens within the woman’s body, she is forced to take notice of every sensation felt, and when she’s trying to get pregnant every twinge of sickness brings hope. The man doesn’t have to think of it unless the wife brings it up or he sees a father with his child.

Although I have never experienced the pain of childbearing, I have experienced the curse of being a woman waiting for God to implant a child into her womb. Fortunately I have a husband who is sensitive to that. He recognized that he couldn’t begin to understand the emotional pain I experienced each month when my period came. But when he held me it felt like the arms of God wrapping around me, comforting me.



Next Post, by Andy: 4/3/07

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

God made you to love you little one
there's noone like you no not one...

You really are amazing, really!!

Anonymous said...

Michelle,

I never knew you were going through this struggle. Your faith is inspiring. Thank you for sharing your journey. I know that God has something remarkable planned for you because you are a remarkable woman. I look forward to reading the rest and seeing what wonders will come from this experience.

Anonymous said...

Michelle,
I finally got a chance to finish reading all the posts. Having walked this with you from my vantage point and loving you as I do, it touches my heart very deeply. Watching the depth of your faith grow over the years has been a wonderful thing. You are a wonderful daughter-in-law and such a shining example of God's love as you allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to share your journey so that others can learn from your pain and be encouraged.
Love you for always!!
Mama Lois

Leigh Ann said...

Amen to all who commented on this post. And I love the picture... love it.